March 4, 2012

• Bad badder baddest.

  The worst night of this year is now turning into the worst morning of this year. I'm exhausted, freezing, starving, and stranded without a way to get home or even to get out of the cold because our keys are locked in the truck. It serves me right because I'm a dumb ass, but still. Being homeless is fun with a truck. But without a truck to stay warm in, it is actually very scary and harsh. I'm sitting at Epoch Coffee right now with Car and he's on the phone with his dad begging him to help us get a locksmith so we can open the truck. I can't really tell if it's working or not. I really hope it is. I keep almost falling asleep, but I have to keep waking myself up because we're not allowed to sleep in here. Car already got in trouble for it twice. We were so exhausted last night after having no luck opening the door, that we decided to try to sleep in the bed of the truck. We bundled up in everything we had and laid down. It really wasn't even that uncomfortable. But we were out there for an hour before I started having a mind numbing panic attack. I was so cold that I couldn't feel half of my body. So we had to go back into Epoch to get in from the cold, even though we were very tired. It took me literally 45 minutes before I could stop shivering after we got back into Epoch. It was terrible. All I could do was sit in the chair and shake. Car bought me a coffee with the last two dollars that we have to our name and let me hold it in my hands so I could warm up faster. Now 5 hours later I am still saving that last sip of cold coffee while we sit on this couch trying to hold our heads up, but at least we're out of the cold. The sun has already come up now and I smell breakfast food. It's making me soooo hungry. I don't know when the next time I'll be able to eat is. This really sucks. I'm hungry and thirsty and can't even get to any of my medicine because it is in the truck. I called and/or texted everyone I knew to ask for help, but most of them ignored me, and the ones who didn't basically just said tough luck. I don't blame any of them though. If anyone deserves this, it's me. I'm not upset or anything about this because I know it's my fault and I had it coming to me. I'm just really sad and worried and I feel terrible. I don't know why this had to happen during this new cold front. It was the most cold night in a long time and that's just my luck.

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