October 21, 2014

  • Noon Update in Victoria

    Good morning, Xanga! It's about 12:31pm in Victoria right now, and I'm upstairs in my room just waking up. Normally this would be a bad hour to sleep until in Victoria, but I have strep throat and Nana has been pretty much allowing me to sleep constantly, which is exactly what I need because now it's finally starting to get better. My next dose of antibiotic is due in about ten minutes so I'm keeping busy a bit until then. Maybe I should take a little hit of weed. Usually that calms my nerves and right now my nerves are a little uppity. I feel like I'm pregnant with the way my mood keeps fluctuating. I want to cry out of both sadness and happiness at like everything on TV and I feel like yelling at anyone or any phone company who has wronged me. I honestly wish I was pregnant. But I'm not. Carlton and I have been trying to concieve since summer time. But no such luck has happened. I'm really worried that one of us is infertile. Wouldn't that just be MY luck?! I would be infuriated if I've gone through all this and waited so long for the right time and then I can't have kids?! I could have become infertile after using my Mirena IUD for three years. But also Carlton has never had any pregnancy scares that he knows of, so he could be infertile too. Ugh. Wouldn't it be terribly ironic if I had to end up adopting a kid because Carlton or I were infertile?! I don't think anyone in their right mind would give us a kid though, so I think we're gonna have to make one up on our own. Oh well. We haven't been living together consistently for a few months only because we can't, but hopefully within the next week we will be and then it will be easier to stay hot and heavy and baby ready. :) Anyways, I'm gonna go take some medicine and maybe take a small hit of weed, then head downstairs and see what's up. Lata!