March 5, 2014

  • Dear Uncle Shnauzer;

    Okay; let's admit it.
    It's time we both come clean.
    Because right now I need your guidance,
    more than I could ever need..
    We both knew I always knew,
    just who you'd become...
    But I never knew...
    That one drug you were on.
    Well, I never cared,
    because it <u>never</u> was important.
    &You never dared,
    to ever <i>not</i> put <u>us</u> before it...
    And I know you hit my Mom;
    And I know you scarred my Dad;
    And you broke my Grandma's heart;
    And you hated my Grandad...
    But Uncle Ben, we loved you so damn much -
    Cassie, Nick, and I.
    You never let it touch us;
    and you <i><u><b>never</i></u></b> made us cry.

     

    *I hope you know that, Uncie-B... Straight up/bet/dollars to donuts/swear... it's the truth. : <b>You never made us cry.</b>*

     

    You <i>always</i> made sure we were sheltered;
    even though you know I knew,
    about all those things you ever hoped that,
    your "sweetest friend" - would never do.
    And I know you know my lies,
    and I know you see the truth...
    And I know your heart is breaking,
    because I'm just becoming you.
    And I know you think that no one
    knows you died in dignity;
    that you died being the most alive..
    that you could ever be...
    And that you were in your home-town -
    Ben, I know you had the option! -
    but when the results came out...
    <b>It just wasn't in your system.</b>
    ...
    <i>How come it wasn't in your sytem?</i>

    <b><u>METH</b></u> just <i>wasn't</i> in your system.

    ...

    Oops, I called you out.
    Sorry, but it doesn't matter.
    We all know you had it coming,
    or blame it on this brain that's scattered ...
    YOU should be here with me!
    You're not old enough!
    I never thought that you'd leave -
    oh, such lonely stuff...
    Fuck an "empire of dirt",
    cause all you had was dust!
    And even all the dust I kept;
    well hell! - It all burned up !!!