February 17, 2014

  • Something is wrong when

    You dream about banging your head on a wall.

    You feel sad when your boyfriend says he loves you.

    You feel apologetic for talking to your boyfriend too much.

    You change your bra in front of your boyfriend and he never takes his eyes off Reddit.

    Let's try this: "Today I Learned" ...

    That my boyfriend cares more about what strangers on Reddit "learned today" than anything his girlfriend did that day.

    That I am not allowed to disagree with anything my boyfriend says, and that he gets the final say on everything "or else".

    That this isn't my house, and it never will be; and this place where I keep all my little things and prance  around picking up and organizing it all every day is really nothing more than a naive little girl dressing up in big-girl clothes and playing house in a place that I had to force myself into being welcome at in the first place.

    That this just isn't gonna get better.

    That this is the definition of 'settling'.

    That there are things I can do to make this more bearable, and this is one of them.