June 27, 2013

  • Wishing never got me anywhere before, but...

    For the last few days, I've been really home-sick for International. I don't know why, but I feel like I'm upset about it for the first time since the fire happened. Maybe I've been in that denial stage of grief all this time, because for the past six months, I haven't really felt devestated about it. But now all of a sudden, I'm distraught and it's all I can see when I close my eyes. I don't know why it's coming up just now. I wish it would stop. I wish I didn't care. I wish I could let go. I wish I could forget. I wish it never happened. I wish I was home... :(